Ash

But first, Song of the Day: John Mayer - Assassin

Onto the topic at hand.

Ashley. Simple common name, no offense lol.

It means more than that. The person bearing that name means more.

"...I trust you and I feel as if you wouldn't lie to me just to get me going."

This is what she told me more than a couple of years ago. I remember reading that email feeling mad special that out of all the guys, she felt this way about me. And I truly thought she was special. I had no intention of hurting her feelings. Which is why I couldn't lie about what went on. I still regret that.

Moving forward in a way I still can't believe she decided to still be my friend.

Last night we had a heart to heart. Basically trying to make sense out of the various feelings we felt for each other but one thing's for sure and that we feel blessed being just friends.

These days I find myself daydreaming about her. You know the usual...hehe. But also running my fingers through her curly fro. I anxiously wait for her to sign on or check her blog to see if she had updated. I read it religiously now. Yeah my feelings for her are stronger than those she have for me or as she puts it, "I like you a decennnnnntttttt amount." But I certainly don't blame her for being cautious with me or just wanting to be friends. I mean her emotional history with guys period was a rollercoaster. I'm surprised she haven't checked out the other side of the fence. But she hasn't given up hope or became so bitter like most people. Gotta admire that. Even if it won't be myself Ash is the personification of the final piece of the puzzle that a lucky man will find that he's been searching for his whole life.

It's the only way I can put it without being too "mush mush" lol.

We wrote a short story together. And I still have it. And I think we should finish it.

So I shall end this with a haiku:

I wrote a poem,
It is my present to you,
It's the thought that counts.

LMFAO I know you're busting out laughin ahhhhh there goes my sweet spot! But for real...

...your gift is on its way. :) muahahaha...

Happy Birthday Ashley.

Love,

-Chris